Today i finally make it to pray mummy, but something really piss me off. {of couse not my sweet baby or my dearly friends} I must save 3k or more to shift mummy to a better place, i sure must!!
Ok now back to business, actually i just need to sleep. With hugs and kisses from baby, sweet dream suckers.
p/s: sandyyyyyyyyyyy better not drink too much todayyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Now b is sound asleep, while im watching this movie, he tried his best to disturb me.. So now is my turn :)
Good night people.
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Time check - 4.09.
Jerry just nudge me at msn asking me what time zzz. If b was to know = G.G.
I dont know why i cant sleep, my father have been calling me for days. I mean hardcore one. But i die die dont wanna answer. I really feeling so fuckingggggggggggggggggg stress abt him trying to use my god dam name to buy a fucking house!! Ya, everyone says dont sign. BUT PLEASE, YOU ARE NOT IN my SHOES, tryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy it then you will know. Try be his fucking daughter man. IT's GOD DAM FUCKING TIRINGGGGGGGGGGGGG. PCB. Sorry, but i really really really really really feel so fucked up by his NEVER ENDING CALLLLLLSSSSS!!!! I WANT TO CUT RELATIONSHIP BY 21 I FUCKING SWEAR, NO DOUBTS!!!!
Please, exchange him for my mother to be back on life instead. I wont even cry or drop another single tears for him if anything was to happened to him. The happiest days IS HE WAS IN JAIL.
SPELL S-T-R-E-S-S FOR ME PLEASE, PLEASE FUCK OFFFFFFFFFF.
this weekend, by all means i must make it to pray my mummy. I dont care whether im going alone or what, i just really neeeeeeeeeeed to go. (i have say this countless of time, but i alway FAIL to go.)
auntie uncle did calm me down, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO USE!!! They should just talk to my fucktard father.
No money wanna learn people gamble, THIS IS CALL IDIOT. No money wanna have girlfriend, somemore find those whore, THIS IS CALL FUCKING IDIOT.
I was looking through my saved text, "good night daughter have a nice sleep now" FROM WHO? My sister father. Can consider i have losted him as a father too. Text him during father day he didnt reply me :( I Neglected him way too long, now he so mad at me ........... Blame it on myself, get to carried away by my own things and took everything for granted back then. FUCKITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. I rmber when i was young, i even requested to have the surname as him... But i was too young to know that he was not my real father and didnt know he was playing along with me, but he really treated me like his real daughter...
I need a getaway really... Because my mind gonna blow up.
Spell S-T-R-E-S-S for me.
Do i really have to go through all this alway?If that is so, i rather end everything now... Life is way too long if things keep going on every now and then... Ya, everyone has their own family problem, but sorry im this weak. I dont know how others overcome it, but i just cant do this over and over again :(
Babyyyyyyyyyyy is out to pack durian back! loveeee durian. I knew he love me singing korea song. He really can stand it lo.
RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?!
p/s: i love you.
Ok, duckyneoyazi(our baby) needs me now.
Durian for everybodyyyyyyyy.
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I forget to add on, today is the first time ever im eating "lala", you know the shell shell thingy?! Dont know then never mind, because me loveeeeeeeee to eat lala!! Same for b, so now AHAHAHHAHA. You have meee to fight for licking the plane clean. I know b sure ask me to suck his instead, but me like to suck lala now.
Anyway, ikea foods are really nice.
I can eat up to, 6chicken wing, 5 meatball and one of the meal sets.
So not unbelieveable.
I also dont know why i wont grow fat.
When the suns goes down...
I tired of being force to do things that i dont want to. It has been so since i was born, by those fucktards adult. Alway claim "this is the best for you", seriously fuck that. But if i dont go along with the choice they make, big shit happened. Why do you alway have to drag my pathetic life with you over and over again. How unlucky i was to be born by you or rather make by your stupid sperm. You cheated, you lied and ruin EVERYBODY FUCKING LIFE! I believe your karma will come soon, a fucking huge karma which i hope u will fucking get it soon.
You really got a fuckface, and i cant stand that im still 18 that's why im still under your fucking control. But i dont give a damm, report the police all you want. I will vomit out all your dirty doings to the police and maybe that will be more easy for me to cut my relationship with you in future or NOW I CAN ALREADY.
Nobody ever say you was once "useable" in life, thus you are so fucking useless to be still living. Wasting air that you breathing, watching food that can save many others who are starving.
Because im so wasted by you for so many years, years of torturing by your "money not enough, "drugs" and fuck your "gambling" which make the whole family goes down. How people look at us and how people laughed at us.
Is another happy 30th. Double happiness! Because im a mother of 1! (just kidding >.<)
Because pay roll in todaaaaaayyyyyy :D:D:D:D
I love ben neoo x 13 time. I will never grow sick of it i swear. Because this love aint going anywhere !
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Cb baby ask me to suck it when i already suck his before (i mean finger). Now we have 5 baby actually. But the above is the cutest that is why im showing it to all. Her name is call Ducky Neo Ya Zi. I know is a nice name, no doubts. LOLOLOL.
He says: But my love cant be tear off baby. you know i really love you.
Seems like a wonderful dream, wonderful....
(.......................................)
And today i saw a lady who look so alike my mummy...
Really super alike..
Yesterday, i was in woodland area, drove pass my ex pri school. My old house.
So many things flash back, like those spoilted old film.
How was i been chased out of there, how i farewell to my primary school classmate.
And how they promise to write letter to me so that i know they wont be forgetting me.
But i wait till now, i get zero letter.
It was easy to fool me with words right? AHAHAHHAHA.
This is how i landed in tampines. Which i hope i never had to move in here. I wish mummy wont even bring to see my real dad and tell me who're they. The biggest wish is still, mummy still kicking alive. She did teach me how to cook wonderful foods. Because i cant forget her lotus soup taste yet... Ahahahhahaha! Because of all this happened, i hate(should be fear) being home alone or even dark. I dam hamji i know(this is what my bf alway call me-.-). But then you try lo, sleep until ji happy, suddenely police came by... DAM SCARY I TELL YOU. (please, im not sad or what.)
Baby, please dont kill me. I already blur the picture!!!
See he smileeeeeee X) Ok, baby face abit cramp while my cannot maintain.
Random~~~
Just to share with you my cute alarm clock!
What laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Me love duck.
I realise baby master abit of duck lips, ahahahaha.
I just cant get back to sleep already, so i trying to do something in this 1 hour time before i go prepare for work. Baby have left to service the country(LOL?)
Didnt manage to wake baby up in time today actually (SORRWIEEEEZXZXZXZXZX). Thus, he have to reach camp by 7am the whole next week as a punishment (KNNPCB!@#@$@#%#$^$%&^$%&%^*@#$SCREWYOUCRABBBBBBORWHATVEERRRR). But now, i got a new wake up time next week in order to wake him up in timeeeeee. Mind you, he's the same as me.... Alway requesting 5mins, but i alway lie :D
Like is only 7am, i did bluff him "baby, 8AM LIAO!!!!!!!" He will just jump out of bed and then mission completed :D This few days, baby hardly snore... Just when i tot, last night he was snoring loudly. Hahaha, but i dont mind la.. Already so use to it.
Feel like eating breakfirst.
But super lazy to walk to mac
Im so happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy.
Cant wait for family gathering chalet this weekend, HOHOHOHOHOH.
Baby is coming along with me!!!
He had been disturbing my gugu and cousin at msn chats.
I found a place so safe, not a single tear The first time in my life and now it's so clear Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere I wouldn't change a thing about it This is the best feeling This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay This moment is perfect
We(baby, sis, sis bf) just done housecleaning. Im super super super sticky now i swear. AHAHAHHAHAHA! This is what i have been doing during father days. Now, i shall upload pictures :)
I feel so small in this picture. i mean tiny :(
And then carry on....
HOHOHOHOHO. baby alway camera ready. AHAHAHHA.
Seee i told you!!!! he's the shirt that says "I luv slutty nurse".
Baby is real cute, whenever we watch drama and he's around.. He did ask stupid question like "how come like that, who will the girl be with? and blahblahblah" If im the scriptwriter i sure know one baby. But sadly me dont know :( LOL, Baby alway beat me whenever i talk back this sentence with him. AHAHAHHAHA. Such a cutie ass.
Let's end this party picture of us ♥
p/s: cant be bother, i tot things will getting better. Ahahaha? Funny.
pp/s: is not abt my bf, because my bf is perfect now :)
pp/s: Because he's my better man, no one could be as perfect in my eyes as him already. ♥♥♥
We finally went to eat frog leg with baby and jerry!
But each time, i alway dont have space left for durian :(
DURIAN, next time ok?!
Back home we watch movieeeeeeeeee!!
Sat
Is baby brother nicholas birthday! Went to japanese restaurant at tampines stadium to eat.
And then back home watch movie (Fb game alittle.)
And then night time, cook 100 maggie mee (i know this is random) and down we go to Nana(i think is a club?) Guess what?! I saw fangfang and shuhua! Ahahahaha, of all places right. Random again. Ok, baby was kinda bored there because he dont drink and with me around his eyes are locked(which means no bao meimei. ^.6). Just kidding, but baby 5-10 super CMI! hehehehhee. Took quite alot of picture but have to wait till pat(baby sister) is back then can upload. But i really have hell lots of funnnn this few days with babbbbbyyyyyyloveeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Can see that baby is stressing so much things, i think i wanna cancel the so last min genting trip on july...
Instead to help baby lighten his weight :) Me wanna help help also!!!
I guess things really worked out this time, really glad so .. Ahhahaha. Now baby is still sleeping. I gonna gooooo poke his armpit because he just kicked me! WWF TIME PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Congratulations you've found your soulmate! Though you two have your ups and downs the chemistry is amazing! You both have an undeniable love for each other that can only be explained with the words "I DO" He's a keeper!!!!
I realize, i really have been eating panadol daily. I mean without fail everyday. Sometimes i have to pop more then once daily. This is bad i know.
Actually i just wake up from a long long hour sleep. I just had dinner cooked by babyb parents. But im still feeling tired tot i've slept more then 12hours already, so i guess i will be going back to bed. Is getting winding this few nights, can sleep without air-con :)
Finally, i finish my boys before flower drama. Korean boys are really hot, gees. But well, i keep crying and crying while watching it. AHAHAHHA. Now i dont know what drama is nice already.
I miss jetski. I hate singapore. I hate everything here. I wish to rip them apart now if i happened to see them.
I really dislike my brother ex gf. She keep leading my brother on while she's happily moving on but lied to my brother. I dislike this kind of attitude(in bgr). Break up you're the one who choose it, but you still want to toture my brother telling him how much you love him and stuff. What the fuck do you gain? Extra one more guy woo-ing you make you happy i guessed so. Hearing this really piss me dam off. I guess this is not the first time things are happening this way. WHAT A TURN OFF. Dont call this love please.
lately been stressing about a few things, well still unclear. Like i say i really hate singapore. Pleasepleaseplease, once my job is stable. Let me fly to other station or whatever.
"shit do happened, this is life"
You know you know. 24 hours a day simply not enough. I think my fever coming back up again! Dam, im still coughing nonstop. Working tmr still, BIG DAM.
babyb around southchinasea, be safe and come back in 1 piece.
GEMINI -
The Twin Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini'swill not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, andarevery nosey.Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERYFORGIVING.Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. (quite true some lo.)
I think i've to wait one year at least. Lol. You know what i mean right uhuhuhuhuhuhuh.
The other day, went prawning with babyb and his sister and brother (plus their GF and BF). Take all prawn back and cook and down our tummy. Next day, fever again. Till now, i hate getting sick :(
